FALLING....

Missing the tiny taybug, but not where this picture was taken.....

If I grump at you like a puppy will you stop taking my pictures?

I think this is the 300th kiss she's given me this week!

I'm too cute for my shirt!

Granni's shoulder is the best, I love her!

The Fuss family has been "falling" and has forgotten the bloging! We have visited Granna and Grandpa, dressed as a puppy for Granni's party, sat in a pumpkin, and snorted with the piggies at schnepf farms. Mommy fuss really needs to learn how to get the pictures off her video camera:) It's on the to-do list this week along with ordering Taybug's entire life of pictures.... and YES I do have to make lists each week. SOMEHOW this keeps me sane and something to look forward to or DRED. Daddy fuss has been wonderful, as always, but especially when the Fuss was extra fussy this week.... I left for an hour to relax and came home to a bubble bath ready for me. So sweet.... minus the bubbles--- which weren't the liquid kind HUBBY:) Sorry to embarass you. Here are some pictures, none of which pertain to this post, but will hold be accountable to posting them.... soon....

3 months and CHARMING!

The tiny fuss is 14 weeks old, so we just had his pictures taken. He is adorable. So fun. And progressing perfectly! These pictures were taken by my fabulous sister.... you DO want her to take yours, believe me, kiddie kandids can't do this. Email her: kaprirose@gmail.com ($65 dollars if you book before Oct 1st) New Mommy's: newborn pictures are a MUST!

Today......

Today is the eve of Tay-Bug 3 months bliss!

Today is the first morning I woke up in my crib

Today Tay and mom cried together....

Today we met baby Charly

Today I held my head up, oh so proudly!

Today is the day before tomorrow, which will hopefully be a new fresh day!

Things that melt my heart....

These are the best picture I could find of his "sunken eyebrows and melting into the sponge."---You'll read about these things:)

The older my tay-bug grows, the more I love him and melt. I am enjoying our little family melting together as we make changes and learn new trials. Today I think I finally moved over my "working hump." Motherhood doesn't exactly give you the daily reward of a job-well-done as working does, however, rarely does working place imprints on your heart. There are times when I helped someone accomplish a goal, learn a new skill or strategy, and that was rewarding and I still remember their face. Thoughts crossed my mind that there wasn't a better feeling. WRONG. Never did I think I would BEAM over a baby hanging over my shoulder. So I have finally faced the thought I have been TRYING to learn.... motherhood is a lifelong reward that someday will reap success.

Thing that make me melt:

A baby who wakes in the night, I'm convinced, just so he can hold his mommy for a while.

A baby snuggled in the moon of my tummy, with a daddy holding us both.

Greeting a smile when instantly noticed in a room.

Eyes following me while I leave the room with a brow of disappointment.

Sleeping eyes on my chest in the bathtub.

A sigh of exhaustion, with a head draping backwards. (closeline)

One eye peeking, just to make sure I am STILL holding him.

Sunken eyebrows with hands folded beneath the chin. I AM THINKING.

Grunting for business:)

Suck-sucking of a binky, moaning, to concentrate sleepy time, or filling an empty tummy.

Coo's in the morning, evening, and afternoon.

The sweet "lick-licking" of a baby who has found his mommy's shoulder.

Tiny hands discovering puppy dogs, and fishies. BAT.BAT.BAT

Drifting eyes while singing lullaby's

Listening ears to goldie-locks and the three bears.

A steady heartbeat.

Soft snoring and giggles from puppy-dog dreams.

Flailing arms approaching displeasure or excitement.

Sinking into the sponge to get deeper into the water. Sunken Eyebrows.

Smiles. Giggles. Joy.

I love you Tay bug and your daddy too:)

Sleep deprived and counting.....

If and when you get your birth announcement, you will see the deprevation of a dumb mom named HEIDI! I said Taylor was 21 inches, mind you I made these late night when he was actually SLEEPING..... and he was 19 inches. Yes I had to check.... ARGGG!

La Jolla

My Papa took his kids to La Jolla, CA for a week... how fun, huh?! My mom couldn't wait to lay in the sun, play in the waves, and come home "black" as she always used to say. RUDE AWAKENING of absolute sweetness. Me. My mom had the car packed brim to brim with all my THINGS. She was a nutcase a few days before we left. I hung in my Bjorn all day with mom, rough life for me, now that's where I want to be at home. My mom enjoyed having an excuse to have me attached to her all day even though she couldn't do all the normal things with me. It was a vacation from regular life to enjoy me and my dad.

Laying in the grass with mommy and daddy. Cute little fuss fuss.

San Diego Temple.... AMAZING!

Turtle power in my swim suit, laying on the sand entertaining my mom and Aunt Shayla. STRETCH!

My papa bought me a matching harley davidson shirt... to which my mom will NEVER let me ride one. My dad DISAGREE'S. I am catching my Papa's double chin:)

Here I am with my parents before going to sea world.... I love the otters and SHAMU!

...and my FAT cousin catching some zzz's. Love you chubby buppie.

Here is my PHAT Papa catching some rays

My mommy took me to watch my dad surf, but only caught him teaching his nieces and nephews. He is the best.

Growing Pains

PS--- in this pose I annally greeted my mom with poop catching...sick...welcome.to.mommy.world.

My mom and I are experiencing growing pains lately. I weight 10 pounds now, so my mom's arm is getting very strong. Meanwhile my tummy is being fussy so I'm beginning to grow into formula. My mom and I are both sad during this transition but TUMMY aches suck! I love being home-- I already roll over, pull my mom's hair and earings, and "climb" up my daddy's chest. Bath time is my best hour and my black and white mirrors make me goo!! Right now my mom is trying to teach me to self soothe-- though I'm not sure it's worth it because she cries when I do. So she is blogging to keep her mind busy. Here are some of my 5 week pictures... I think I'm adorable:)

Grateful for the gifts....

There may be few times in our lives that we experience an event that opens our eyes to gratefulness and humility for our situation. Now that we are finally home, I see reasons for why we had to endure a month (exactly) in the hospital, and I can truely say I am grateful. Family bonds needed to be mended, opportunities to give service were desired, and spiritual preparedness was lacking... temporally we were all READY! Clothes, car seats, bouncers, swings, nursery... I had all of that covered, but I was not prepared to raise a child and so I was given the opportunity to be refined I believe:) And so we are grateful for many gifts;

Having Taylor home---minus his sleepless nights!!!

The increased love in our marriage

Family ties renued

Prayers answered

Fasting recognized-- he came home July 2nd, the day we fasted for

Service

Beautiful pictures from Aunt "Pree" (see below)

The little "fuss-fuss"

I am so sweet wrapped up like a burrito says my dad...

I am the cutest baby... says my biased mom

My tiny hand likes to hold everything, especially mom and dad's hands when I eat

Sometimes I just like to think...

I think my dad taught me this because he does it to my mom when he is being silly

I like to look up at the angels my mommy thinks

I did not like the taste of this medicine.... hence I vetoed it with an SVT

Hey it's me, Tay boy, fuss fuss, T---whatever they call me... Last night was the first night my mommy got to sleep by me. I wanted to give her the full enchilada, so I was a fuss pot from 2 to 5. I think she reconsidered getting angry at the nurses at the other hospital for not letting her sleep by me. I'm not sure why I was grumpy last night, I usually only cry when I want food, get an IV, or if the clumsy EKG specialist pinches my skin:( I had a photo shoot a couple weeks ago at my old crib, on the recliner from my aunt Pree. I really liked the furry backdrop she let me lay on. Thought I would share them with you as I approach my one month birthday!

P.S.-- I have been SVT free for 5 days and 7 hours...this is a record. My new doctor says if I behave on my new medicine I can go home Thursday- my one month birthday. But don't tell me this because I tend to revolt when they say I can go home... However, prayers to keep this date are much appreciated by my mommy and daddy. I am still a piglet, and I weight 8lbs 1 oz; my mom really considers starving me to keep me tiny, but then I FUSS!

A baby who rules the world...

(Baby Tay and his mom who hasn't done her makeup in 19 days, or dried her hair...needing to spend time on herself perhaps:)

This much we have learned from baby Tay; he controls the universe! If he wants to eat he sucks on mom's neck or turns his head half way around with an open mouth. If he doesn't like his nurse, he poops on her. If he wants an IV out, he does so. If he doesn't like his medicine, he has an episode, therefore creating a challenge to find a new one. If he wants you to leave him alone, he grunts. If he doesn't want you to change his diaper, he lifts his bum up (yes he is that strong). If he wants kisses he makes "oooo" lips. If he doesn't want to leave the hospital, he has an episode.... and so this is the lovely waiting game we are playing. His dad says "clearly anything he does, he will do 100%." And so we are the lucky parents of a perfect baby who rules the world. Maybe we are blessed because all we can do is sit with him all day and watch him change. Maybe this will prepare us for more difficult times, and maybe this builds our love and appreciation for family and our heavenly father.

Healing Hands for Taylor

God, lay Thy healing hands on these,
Keep them in Thy care.
Help us to remember them,
When we kneel in prayer.
Keep us ever grateful Lord,
And when we are hard to please,
Remind us that our Cross is light,
Compared with such as these.

The good things in life... BY TAYLOR

...my mom gave me my first "kewpie" hair-do because I got the IV out of my head. YAY! I actually enjoyed her combing my hair, I made "oooo" lips at her (so cute)! I am still in the hospital, but progressing:) I got taken off oxygen today, I'm glad those things don't poke me in the nose anymore! Right now I am writing you because I am getting a new IV and mom can't watch another traumatic event--- I let them know I am unhappy about these medical procedures quite vocally:) I really like my dad to give me sugar water and hold my head and tell me I'm a TOUGH GUY during these times. I eat like a PIGLET, and sometimes I don't like my nurses. I've only had one episode since monday morning because they were doing some beta tests. I hope to be in my BLACK and WHITE world soon, because that's all I see anyways. 

Love,

Tay-Tay

Beautiful baby miracle....

.... here we are,day 7, at the NICU. My heart is heavy to even make this post because I am so grateful for this beautiful baby boy. He is a miracle, and daily I am reminded that we are lucky to have him. Our prayers were answered by many, even our sweet brother Drew, who woke up in the middle of the night (age 6) because he needed to pray for Taylor. We hold him now, feed him, and are getting to know his sweet personality. He is such a darling, handsome, sweet baby and our life is more full. As you may remember he was a surprise to us, so we know he needs to be here at this time, probably to shape his mom and dad:) Taylor's doctor began the 5 day countdown yesterday provided no "episodes" which are S.V.T. attacks when his heart rate spikes. He is taking his medicine orally now, so here the journey begins.... 

Taylor Philip Woody

He's here! This is Kapri, Heidi's sister. Heidi had Baby Taylor at 7:08pm last night via emergency c-section. He weighed 6 lbs, 11 ounces and is soo beautiful! Little Tay has a high heart rate that they are working to stablize and transfered him to another hospital. Keep Heidi, Jason and Taylor in your prayers! We hope Heidi (and her now ridiculously flat stomach...hate her :))gets to hold him soon!

She got to see him for a minute when they had him all ready to go in the helicopter...see above pic.